Ignore me, being stupid over here

[eiliem]

I can't believe how ridiculous I'm being, but I just want to curl up and cry and not read any more One Piece until things are better. Or ever I don't really mean that last bit. Mostly.

Maybe I'd feel better if I had a good cry, but I just have this miserable ball of lead in my gut instead.

I knew Whitebeard was going to die. I knew it was coming. I didn't know it was going to happen this chapter but, baring a miracle (and as Oda has been uncharacteristically stingy with those recently, I wasn't holding my breath >.<), I could tell it was going to be soon.

So it's not like I was surprised or anything. Or, maybe pleasantly surprised that he got the kind of badass death he deserved, after Blackbeard showed up.


None of which explains why I feel like Oda just killed my puppy.

Fuck this arc, never wondering how bad Oda can make things again. Can't imagine how he can make this any worse; trust that he will.


Tried watching the Luffy-Usopp fight so I could have a good cathartic cry (I never said it was a good idea - it's late at night, illogical things are thought). Didn't work, just feel worse.

And maybe I'm completely wrong that a good cry would make me feel better. Maybe I'd just have itchy eyes and a sore throat on top of being stupidly miserable.


Ha ha, of all things, listening to happy Strawhat songs is making me cry. Fuck my life.



I will be better when it is not late at night. Probably.

Oda, for the love of Luffy's hat, make things better. Soon.

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[eiliem.livejournal.com]

*SNUGGLES!*

Things will be okay! *believes fervently*

The chapter in and of itself wasn't as devastating as the two before it... it was the three-chapters-in-a-row-no-hope that got me. As was the creeping feeling that Ace might be gone for good ;_;

BUT! I am back in self-deluded mode (my powers of self-delusion, they are epic) and clinging stubbornly to hope. Ace is not gone gone until there is a party!

Whitebeard died like the badass we all knew he was, so he can rest now.


*kicks Ace* Wake up stupid, we're not finished with you yet!

[ukiiukii.livejournal.com]

Yeah I think I need to wait a bit until things get happy again because goddamn this is making me so depressed NNNGGGH.

I'm glad your back in denial mode! Reading your posts lets me have hope vicariously through you XD

[eiliem.livejournal.com]

*spams you with craaa~ck*




Ahaha, denial, it is a happy place. XP

Oda hasn't answered half the questions he raised about Ace this arc! So he can't be finished with him :D *logic is flawless*

[ukiiukii.livejournal.com]

Pffffffft that image. That's amazing.

THAT GIVES ME LOTS OF HOPE. Oda please tell me your sneakiness means something.

[eiliem.livejournal.com]

-we don't know why Ace wanted to take Whitebeard's head
-right before he died, Ace mention some "Sabo incident" ...o_O whut?
-we've seen next to no interaction between tiny!Luffy and tiny!Ace, just glimpses, and while we can easily imagine why Luffy would worry his brother, we haven't really seen why Ace would say Luffy worried him "all the time" or why Ace felt he had to protect Luffy
-we also never got a flashback of them fighting

... and, yes, these are all questions that have to be answered in flashbacks, which don't technically need Ace to be alive for :P ....but why bother if he's dead? And they are all questions that Oda raised this arc and I can't see him just... letting them hang. He never drops a plot point.

Did you read shayera's post on the Loophole? That the chapter was called "The Death of Portgas D. Ace" but his birth name is Gol D. Ace - which is how the chapter ends, in fact. And I love the thought because - well, how awesome would that be? But I couldn't figure out why Ace would take his dad's name - unless he met Rayleigh, and had a good long talk with the man who is still mourning Roger, 22 years after the fact.

[ukiiukii.livejournal.com]

Hmmm yeah I guess he could explain all that without Ace being around. I guess a lot of that stuff is not really necessary to the story as well but it would still be nice to see.

Yeah Oda and his crazy plotness. I think the thing that makes it so hard for me right now is that his death was so...decisive and final. But it came after a lot of time dedicated to fleshing Ace out via backstory in the same kind of formula that we got with the Strawhats. And then finally giving him the will to live. I guess that really it just re-enforces the brutality of his death, but it seems like a lot of time to waste for a character you're just going to kill off two chapters later.

Although I guess really we're all just grasping at straws here. Hahahahaha.... :C

YES I SAW THAT POST AND IT FILLED WITH FALSE HOPE AND JOY AND I KIND OF REALLY WANT IT TO HAPPEN THAT WAY LIKE REALLY, REALLY, REALLY. REALLY!
(really)

I'm just wondering what the hell is going to happen to the Whitebeard Pirates now? Are they going to disband? Is Marco going to take over? I was really expecting Ace to take over once Papabeard passed on and for Oda to set them up as future rivals like the Supernovas, but I GUESS THAT'S OUT THE WINDOW NOW.