Ignore me, being stupid over here

[eiliem]

I can't believe how ridiculous I'm being, but I just want to curl up and cry and not read any more One Piece until things are better. Or ever I don't really mean that last bit. Mostly.

Maybe I'd feel better if I had a good cry, but I just have this miserable ball of lead in my gut instead.

I knew Whitebeard was going to die. I knew it was coming. I didn't know it was going to happen this chapter but, baring a miracle (and as Oda has been uncharacteristically stingy with those recently, I wasn't holding my breath >.<), I could tell it was going to be soon.

So it's not like I was surprised or anything. Or, maybe pleasantly surprised that he got the kind of badass death he deserved, after Blackbeard showed up.


None of which explains why I feel like Oda just killed my puppy.

Fuck this arc, never wondering how bad Oda can make things again. Can't imagine how he can make this any worse; trust that he will.


Tried watching the Luffy-Usopp fight so I could have a good cathartic cry (I never said it was a good idea - it's late at night, illogical things are thought). Didn't work, just feel worse.

And maybe I'm completely wrong that a good cry would make me feel better. Maybe I'd just have itchy eyes and a sore throat on top of being stupidly miserable.


Ha ha, of all things, listening to happy Strawhat songs is making me cry. Fuck my life.



I will be better when it is not late at night. Probably.

Oda, for the love of Luffy's hat, make things better. Soon.